I feel so bland and unattractive and all over the place with no real style lately. My hair is so long and stupid I wear it up almost all the time. My bangs needs to be cut so badly.
Thinking of splurging and getting some new clothes.
Thinking of going back to red and taking off some length.
But the opinion that means the most likes it dark and digs the zooey deschanel thing. I get it, I do, she’s beautiful - I can’t carry it like she does though. I feel like I need more punch of I just waste away in the background.
Maybe that’s it though, maybe I’ve been so background lately instead of being myself that it’s bothering me. Maybe this is just how I try to control it?
I’m sick lately - not sick sick but sick tired. Tired all the time, all I do is sleep. Back to the doc to see what’s up with blood work. I did have a B12 deficiency previously I’m thinking just more shots. Stupid.
I feel like I’m wasting my summer since I literally have no energy to do anything. Making a promise to myself to enjoy more nice weather and be out every weekend even for a little while. I’m also going to make an effort to actually take lunch breaks and read outside for an hour in the middle of my office day.
I’ve been eating the world lately - for no reason. Or maybe because I feel like there’s a hole in me. Either way that’s to right and I need to be better about my meals - plan them. I also need to get my ass back to the gym.
I also - need to book photo adventures while the weather is still warm. I’m going to book something and go to London like I do every year to see my photo buddies there and talking with a new photographer I met on IG to set something up. I also need to adventure with Katie West and go up to my moms once more.
Things need to happen - I’m almost done with 30 and I feel like….I didn’t do anything profound. Nothing changed, nothing got better. I didn’t grow I didn’t adventure I didn’t live. That makes me sad.
“Nothing can possibly live up to the ideals and fantasies you’ve created. So we suffer because things are not the way we think they ought to be. Rather than face what really is, we prefer to retreat and compare what we’re living through with the way we think it oughta be. Suffering comes from the comparison between the two.”—Hardcore Zen- Brad Warner (via fckyeahwhat)
I’m actually super thankful that some of you speak to me and let me know your thoughts about the things that I post. I know that I’m bad at having actual tumblr friendships and having full on conversations back and forth. I’m not here everyday. I don’t view messages most of the times that I am here.
But when I’m home and I’m actually here taking things in - it’s really awesome. I feel like the majority of you guys are great people and people that I’d be grateful to know in real life.
Ahh I wish we were friends. Its becoming one of my number one dreams to shoot with you. Ever since I found you and Katie wests tumblr I've been more inspired then ever to pick my camera up again..
Do it!!! Don’t let the fact that you don’t know us personally stop you! You should create for you - all the time. You do what you’re passionate about and what you’re meant to be doing and you’ll find the people you need to in your life.
Katie and I didn’t start because we knew each other. We both started to have our own visual voice. We’re both 10 years in at this point if not more. And we found each other because we were just doing what we liked to do and eventually the internet brought us together.
I’m still super thankful I met her, I needed her and her work to push me forward.
Start today! Do it! Do it everyday! Create create create!
Hey Faye. I first started following your tumblr back in your pin-up days for the obvious reasons and I'm still following because you're interesting whether you're taking naked pics or not. Just wanted to say that I really like the direction you've taken your photography in over the last couple of years - the latest one you posted with you in the doorway is just beautiful. Keep on making art that makes you happy and you'll always have an audience.
Sounds to me like that guy was just being a dick. You can be whatever you want to call yourself. Whether its fat, chubby, curvy, whatever. You're all of the above, and y'know what? None of them are bad words. All fat is is a descriptive word, like skinny. Silly people.. "hey, looking super fat/skinny today" yeah whatever. Who cares what they say when you totally rock it. You're awesome, and amazing, and beautiful. All that matters is what you think of you. -Random musings from a 32yr old guy.
Completely agree. They’re all just words! I don’t understand how people think that when I say something it means the same exact thing as when they say it. It’s foolish.
I also kinda hate how people think that their opinion actually fucking mean something. Like sure, just cause you asked I’ll stop using the word curvy in relationship to myself for the rest of my life. Thanks so much for setting me straight. *lol
Why can't people accept that people are human? No two are alike. Everybody is exactly the right size/shape/color/flavor they are supposed to be at any given moment. Art. Its everywhere. Open up. You are perfect. Believe it.
Completely agree. I hate comments like that because they’re so closed minded.
Did the tattoos on your thigh hurt? A lot of people say it does so I'm really nervous about getting mine soon.
Man, I thought thighs were easy compared to other places I’ve been tattooed. I wish everything felt like a thigh tattoo. Around the joints are the worst…any joint. And feet sucked, moreso after the fact cause they ballooned up and I couldn’t really walk since I got both done at the same time.
The tumblr on and off porn button - this needs to be a thing.
Cause lets be honest, if you’re on tumblr you probably follow at least one porn blog - AT LEAST ONE! Whether it’s dedicated to your fav star, a fetish you relate to, maybe your friend makes porn? But there’s at least one….
I follow multiple for all those reasons. But sometimes I would love to just “ignore” those blogs for a time. Maybe I’m scrolling through my dash at work? Maybe I’m just in public or on the bus and I just don’t want to creep out the people around me with cum on tits every 10 seconds.
Maybe sometimes, I just want to log into tumblr and just see the other shit that I follow - the photographers, the self made models, the hip hop blog, the art blogs, illustrators….you know that that cool stuff?
And while I totally get that this could never be a full on thing - because granted the people I follow (how aren’t porn blogs but personal blogs) will reblog something every once in awhile - but it would be cool to have PG button, that will hide everything tagged as “porn” “big tits” “fucking” etc.
This would make my life easier tumblr. Can you please invent this button? It’s a good idea. I promise.
“A good relationship is when two people accept each other’s past, support each other’s present, and love each other enough to encourage each other’s future. So don’t rush love. Find a partner who encourages you to grow, who won’t cling to you, who will let you go out into the world, and trust that you will come back. This is what true love is all about.”—(via stevenrosas)